I Less Than Three You

Pre Exam

2011-09-07T03:24:00.000-07:00

Hey all! It's been like FOREVER since I last post something.. Just to update that I'm still alive, well, here I am! :D
So I'm having trials this whole month and I'm having a rest now and later gotta go study..! GOSH! I am so worried about history! I need to get good results for this, because everyone is doing it..! :(
It's so hard to be having exams, studying and training at the same blardy time! It's killing me but I've gotta suck it up and bear through TWO more months! OMG! JUST TWO MORE!
Imagine I was asking for help since January and guess what?! I've not found my answer yet! And I'm still living every single day, more laughter than ever, more fun and less fun! :)

Not More

2011-06-17T02:21:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry B.. I'm sorry for fighting. I don't want to do that anymore.
I want to be happy with you and I'm going to be happy with you.
B, I love you! SO MUCH!
:)

Next: GOLD

2011-06-07T05:10:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! Us girls won 2nd place for SUKMA! :) Had quite a fight with KL. They were leading at first and look at the picture above, that's how we won! 2 coaches! Heng Heng Heng.
Anyway, we won KL by only 2 balls! 10-8! It was such a close match!
Special thanks to my captain who smiled at me throughout the match and I was able to perform well! Thanks to our teammates who had a positive thinking and made it a more lively game to play! :)
Next goal: SEA GAMES! OH YEAH!

I pray I can get selected for SEA GAMES!

I NEED SEA GAMES 2011

I WANT TO PLAY FOR SEA GAMES 2011!
and all the other matches throughout this year, as much as possible. I'll take either O-levels next June or SPM 2012.
PLEASE UNIVERSE! SEA GAMES! ME! WANT!
Oh and I less than 3 my B! :P

Worse Or Worst

2011-05-23T03:09:00.000-07:00

I don't know .. Maybe I'm not trying hard enough? Or I'm trying too hard?
I can't seem to solve those questions or even understand it..! AHHHH!!! This is seriously killing me! I'm so tired of trying and trying and never succeeding! It's pathetic and I get so tired of trying sometimes.. But I can't stop! I'll be having exam and then what about sea games?!?!
GAH! I'm stuck in like the worst options ever!!!! D=

Y U NO meme

2011-05-14T02:16:00.000-07:00

Hello all! It's been quite sometime that I haven't update something here.. Well, nothing much to update really, just a couple more tuition to go to and less training that I can go.
Well, it's not that I don't want to go training. It's because most of my tuition time clashes with training time! What you want me to do? I've missed up a lot during my form 4 lessons, so is it wrong that I try to catch up during my SPM year? Wth, I have only 22 weeks before SPM!

And what I have learn during my polo career is that I can't earn a living through that..! And sacrificing my studies for this state ain't worth it and I won't sacrifice too much for it. It's stupid when you come to think of it, that I've wasted so much time on it, and don't get a shit out of the state. I'm not going to complain all of these here, I've done too many time and it's enough already.

So anyway, I have half completed my first intensive class for today, will be having biology later. I don't even want to count but my classes but it's from 8.30 and to 4.30 pm with an hour break at 1.30. I took five subjects: Moral, History, Physics, Chemistry and Biology. :)

So yeah, Mid year exam is here.. 3 weeks before the holidays and three weeks before the birthday.. ZOMG! I don't know what to buy yet!! HELP!

Alright, I guess I've to get going now. Take care all! Love you B! :D

Extraterrestrial

2011-05-12T08:37:00.000-07:00

You're so hypnotizing
Could you be the devil
Could you be an angel

Your touch magnetizing
Feels like I am floating
Leaves my body glowing

They say be afraid
You're not like the others
Futuristic lover
Different DNA
They don't understand you

Your from a whole other world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Your so supersonic
Wanna feel your powers
Stun me with your lasers
Your kiss is cosmic
Every move is magic

Your from a whole other world
A different dimension
You open my eyes
Katy Perry E.T. lyrics found on http://www.directlyrics.com/katy-perry-et-lyrics.html

And I'm ready to go
Lead me into the light

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

There is this transcendental
On another level
Boy, you're my lucky star

I wanna walk on your wave length
And be there when you vibrate
For you I'll risk it all
All

[Kanye West]
I know a bar out in Mars
Where they driving spaceships instead of cars
Cop a Prada spacesuit about the stars
Getting stupid ass straight out the jar
Pockets on Shrek, Rockets on deck
Tell me what’s next, alien sex
I’ma disrobe you, than I’mma probe you
See I abducted you, so I tell ya what to do
I tell ya what to do, what to do, what to do

[Chorus]
Kiss me, ki-ki-kiss me
Infect me with your love and
Fill me with your poison

Take me, ta-ta-take me
Wanna be a victim
Ready for abduction

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Extraterrestrial
Extraterrestrial

Boy, you're an alien
Your touch are foreign
It's supernatural
Extraterrestrial

Today

2011-04-25T01:58:00.000-07:00

Today is the first month.. Wow..! Wow..! Seriously Wow!
I don't know how fast time can fly and I don't know how slow the time is..!
But Wow! HAHA
beebla!!
I less than three you.
Happy First Month!
:)

My B

2011-04-18T21:28:00.000-07:00

I love my B! :)

Yes, I have said it! Here! On the net! Where everyone can read it! :P
B, I love you! So so so much! Muahhh!

♥

Patience

2011-03-25T20:45:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone!
I have something to tell..! And I am so excited! But.. at the same time, I don't want to rush things, I am scared if it didn't work out and I'll be so damn sad again..!
Anyways I really believe this could at least last a little longer? Hopefully?
Oh My God! I am really so damn grateful and I am so excited to tell you all!
Gosh! But I'll have to wait a little while longer.. just in case..!
Take care! : D
♥

I Wish The Whole Team Reads This

2011-03-19T23:28:00.000-07:00

I feel so shitty right now.
I don't want to get replaced.
I don't want anyone to replace me at all.
I don't want anyone else to take my place.
Who is she to deserve this?
Who is she?
How can she?
Who gave you the rights to do so?
You have no fucking discipline and you talk fuck load and you are so noisy.
I can't stand you, who do you think you are?

I am going to heal.
I am going to be the best water polo goal keeper that this team is ever going to have.
I have fucking trained my ass off
and I have shed tears which I am never proud of to say.
I am just so mad that you guys would even think of replacing me.
Who do you think I am?
Some kind of emotionless doll?

And if you really replaced me with her,
I'm just gonna say this,
I quit.
If you don't appreciate me,
fine.
I'll go away and see how well the keeper will be.
Will she ever have the same spirit that I have?
Will she sacrifice a whole year of her studies for this?
Will she delay one year of her major exam just to play for one match?
Will she pull herself back together and continue keeping when you are loosing 12-2?
Will she be in training when no other girls came for training?
I can confirm this answer right here right now. And it is NO.

I feel very unappreciated
and I feel that I have been betrayed.
And all this sacrifices I made are worthless.
Maybe you'd tell me that she is just there till I heal.
But the thought of you guys wanting someone to even fucking replace me,
fucking gets into my nerve!
GOD! WHO DO YOU THINK I FUCKING AM?!
I have feelings too!

Put yourself in my shoes and see..
Maybe you won't and maybe you can't.
Because you'll never be in my shoes.
I even purposely came training just to see the new girls.
HOW FUCKING GREAT!
You woke up late, came training late and you have no fucking discipline!
And you give me all sorts of fucking excuses ..!
Where are the new girls anyway!?
FUCK!
I AM SO Fucking mad RIGHT NOW!

You think it's easy to face this kind of injury?
To hear the doctor saying that I broke my ear drum?
It's the most scary thing I've even heard.
Writing this down, tears are rolling down my cheeks..
Call me a whiner, call me a jerk.
But you don't know how scary it is to face all this.
Feeling so helpless and having all the clinics closing in front of your face.

Maybe I should just quit.
There is no use working so hard, sacrificing so much
and get replaced just like that
without even confirming if my injury will even get better tomorrow!

I love the team and I love the players so much.
Why can't you guys have a little bit more patience on me?
Why must you even think of replacing me?
I will be the keeper.
I will be the keeper for you girls.
You just watch and see.
I'll be okay.
Why are you girls worrying?
When have I ever let you down?
Answer me that!

Less Than 3

2011-03-19T03:25:00.000-07:00

Made a wrong turn, once or twice
Dug my way out, blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated
Look, I'm still around

Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me!

You're so mean, when you talk about yourself, you were wrong
Change the voices in your head, make them like you instead
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it!
Filled with so much hatred...such a tired game
It's enough! I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same

Oh, pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel like you're nothing
You're f*ckin' perfect to me

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/fuckin-perfect-lyrics-pink.html ]

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They dont like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that..?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby..!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please, if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're f*cking perfect to me
You're perfect, you're perfect!
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less than f*ckin' perfect
Pretty please, if you ever feel like you're nothing
You are perfect to me....

Its been quite some time since I've updated this blog.. But anyhow I am not feeling well, so I won't talk much.
Life has been quite okay.. nothing much, having tuition classes everyday and less training recently.
Just now, like half an hour ago, I was told I have a hole in my left ear drum. And I have to go to the hospital. Another doctor before that gave me a solution, which had worsen my injury. I might not be able to go into the water for a month or two.
I want to cry now. I don't know what to do. But if I start crying now, I'm gonna feel pain in my ear.. It hurts. And I need someone to hug.

PS: I less than 3 you.

Jessie J

2011-03-10T00:49:00.000-08:00

This is the second single from British singer-songwriter Jessie J's debut album, Who You Are. The song was originally anticipated to be released in March 2011 but was pushed forward to late January Read more »

Verse 1

Seems like everybodys got a price,
I wonder how they sleep at night.
When the sale comes first,
And the truth comes second,
Just stop, for a minute and
Smile:)

Why is everybody so serious!
Acting so damn mysterious
You got your shades on your eyes
And your heels so high
That you can't even have a good
Time.

Pre-chorus.

Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
Were paying with love tonight...

Chorus:

It's not about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.

Ain't about the (ha) Cha-Ching Cha-Ching.
Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.

Verse 2.

(Listen, Okay.)
We need to take it back in time,
When music made us all UNITE!
And it wasn't low blows and video Hoes,
Am I the only one gettin... tired?

Why is everybody so obsessed?
Money can't buy us happiness.
If we all slow down and enjoy right now
Gurantee we'll be feelin
All right.

Pre-chorus.
[ Lyrics from: http://www.lyricsmode.com/lyrics/j/jessie_j/price_tag.html ]
Everybody look to their left (yeah)
Everybody look to their right (ha)
Can you feel that (yeah)
We'll pay them with love tonight...

Chorus:

It's not about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.

Ain't about the (ha) Cha-Ching Cha-Ching.
Aint about the (yeah) Ba-Bling Ba-Bling
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price Tag.

Chorus:

It's ain't about the money, money, money
We don't need your money, money, money
We just wanna make the world, world, world, world, world world dance,
OooOOoooooOOOOh! Yeah!

Ba-Bling Ba-Bling
Aint abouth the uh. Cha-Ching Cha-Ching
Wanna make the world dance,
Forget about the Price

Break it Down.

Money, money, money, uh
Money, money, money
Wanna make the world dance
Forget about the Price (yeah)

Aint about the money, money, money
Aint about the mah-money, mah-money, mah-money
We just wanna make the world dance
Forget about the Price Tag

Aint about the uh Cha-ching, cha- ching
Aint about the yeah Ba-Bling Ba-Bling
Wanna make the world da-nce, da-nce, da-nce
Yeah, yeah, yeaaaaaahh

WIN THIS!

2011-03-03T00:45:00.000-08:00

Because of you,
We are WINNING this third round of debate!
Because of you,
We are Winning!
WE ARE WINNING !!!
THIRD ROUND OF DEBATE!
WE ARE WINNING YOU!
AND THEN GOING TO THE FORTH ROUND!
WITH EVERY SINGLE LIVING SOUL OF OUR TEAMMATES!
WE ARE WINNING THIS!!
YOU WATCH OUT AND SEE!

2nd Round

2011-02-26T05:49:00.000-08:00

Debate!! ROUND 2!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG OMG OMG!!!!!!!
WE SMK SHAHBANDARAYA IS GOING TO WIN THIS ROUND!!!
WE HAVE GONE THROUGH TOO MANY THINGS!!!
WE HAVE TO WIN!!!
WE HAVE TO WIN THIS 2ND ROUND OF DEBATE!

Debate

2011-02-21T07:03:00.000-08:00

DEBATE WEEK!!!
OMG!! I AM SO EXCITED!!
GONNA WIN!
We're winning to the FINALS this year!!!

Fucking Pointless

2011-02-11T21:58:00.000-08:00

I am so tired.
I don't feel good.
I don't want to do this anymore.
But I have already put myself there.
Is there any other ways to do this or to stop this?
I am not running away from problems.
I just want to know what other way to solve it.
I want to call someone.
But who?

I feel much more calmer when I look at manicure pictures.
At least I know what will make me feel better.
Just that I feel that no one could hear me.
I want to belong somewhere.
I just don't know who would take me without doubt.

I don't know what to feel anymore.
I don't know what is the next step I should take.
I don't know if all this commitment is worth the time and the tears.
I don't know if I will ever get through this.
Please tell me.

You'd say I am wasting time writing all this down.
But you are not me, you don't understand.
The hurt is so deep, it hurts so bad.
You don't listen, that's why you don't understand.
You didn't even try to.
It's so hurtful, you know, to know that all you do is blame me.

You depend the whole team on me.
You don't know tiring is it.
You don't know how hard I've tried.
You don't know how many fucking girls don't want to join this fucking future-less sport!
You don't know how much time and commitment I've put into it anyhow.

I'm not superwoman.
I'm human too, I have feelings.
And now I feel so tired and I feel helpless.
I don't know who to turn to anymore.
I don't know who I am turning into.
I don't want to do this anymore.
I hope I can just leave all this.

But I can't.
It's pointless.
It just so fucking pointless doing all this.
All I get is bad results.
People leaving the team.
Everyone comparing me, and I'm loosing.

What is there to do anymore?!?!?!?
TELL ME!

Would you have finish reading all this?

Bet no one reads this.

2011-02-11T07:05:00.001-08:00

Get angry with me however long, however way you want, I am tired already.

Stand Up

2011-02-10T05:44:00.000-08:00

Jar Of Hearts

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And learn to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are
Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
WHY?!?!?!?!
Why can't you see that it not about being talented?
Why can't you see that hard work has to be put into?
Why can't you see that commitments has have to be put into?
Why can't you see that I've been clenching my teeth to get through all this victory?
Do you think that I am born talented? That I am born with muscles? Or born with that much strength? Or do you think I'm born better than you are?
No, but I know that I am born with hope. And I know that whatever shit happens, whatever obstacles come to me, I know that I will get through it. I know I will get through it my way. I don't know what the consequences will be, be it bad or good. But I know that I've did my very best to get through the toughest things, I know that at least, hey, I did what my heart told me to, I will not regret this, I will face whatever comes to me. And I make the best of it.
I tell my friends, I show to my coaches, I prove to my parents and the best part of all, I get to be myself.

I am writing this to tell you that you need to stand up. You need to wake up. If I could, I would really want to give you a hard punch right into your face. WAKE UP! Stop standing there! It's about time to do something! It's about time to stand up and do something about it. It's about time that you take control of your life. It's about time to get some respect. It's about time that you know what you want. It's about time you stood up to him and tell him to just shut the fucking fuck up! FUCK! I can't stand it anymore.

There is only one thing that is stopping you. You.
STAND UP! DO SOMETHING FOR YOURSELF! GET SOMETHING DONE, RIGHT!
There might be pain and there might be blood and you know what? By the end of it, it's gonna be alright. You know why? Because I've been through there.
But now how I wish that some miracle would happen.. How I wish something is done right with you and him. And I really really pray for the very best. But hey, it won't work if you don't put in effort, it won't work if you don't stand up. It will work even if you hadn't read this. I hope you do though but I am not sure.

I am really sad. I am sad by the way you think. I am sad by the way he thinks. And I am sad that you let him treat you this way. I know I'm no one to say this but I am really damn fucking sad that you're not showing as much commitment that I expected you to. Maybe I let myself believe too much but you have shown me indirectly that you're not that interested, you keep things inside you and sometimes, I really don't know what you are thinking and I really tried to help but sometimes, I run out of ideas too.

I don't know what to tell you anymore. Just stand up, be brave and everything will be alright.

!!!HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

2011-02-01T06:22:00.000-08:00

To Speak Or Not To Speak

2011-01-26T04:42:00.000-08:00

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in
On a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

I sneak in and see her friends
And her snotty little family
All dressed in pastel

And she is yelling at a bridesmaid
Somewhere back inside a room
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry

This is surely not
What you thought it would be
And I lose myself in a daydream
Where I stand and say:

Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out
Of the church at the back door

Don't wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
When they said "speak now"

Fun gestures are exchanged
And the organ starts to play
A song that sounds like a death march

And I am hiding in the curtains
It seems that I was uninvited
By your lovely bride-to-be

She floats down the aisle
Like a pageant queen
But I know you wish it was me
You wish it was me (Don't cha?)

Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out
Of the church at the back door

Don't wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
When they said "speak now"

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/speak-now-lyrics-taylor-swift.html ]

Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out
Of the church at the back door

Don't wait or say a single vow
Your time is running out
When they said, "speak now"

Oh Oh Oh! ( said speak now.... )

I hear the preacher say
"Speak now or forever ho-old your pea-ea-ea-eace
There's the silence, there's my last chance
I stand up with shaking hands, all eyes on me

Horrified looks from
Everyone in the room
But I'm only looking at you.

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in
On a white veil occasion
But you are NOT the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl!!!!!

Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out
Of the church at the back door

Don't wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
And they said, "speak now"

You Say
Let's run away now
I'll meet you when
I'm out of my tux at the back door

Baby, I didn't say my vows
So glad you were around when they said
"Speak now"

I'm not feeling too well tonight. I feel so down. I feel like.. well, I've cried just now.. and I don't know why this time, I don't feel better.
It's just that I'm kind of messed up right now. I can't catch up with my school work and it takes a lot of courage to write this down but I have already given up. I don't know what to do. I really don't know.
Sometimes, I wish someone, anyone, would ask me how I am today, like I've always ask people, hoping to get the same question back. Once? Maybe?
I am so scared, I'm crying right now.. I don't know what to do.. I'm sorry..
I'm sorry for being me.
I'm sorry for losing in the run.
I'm sorry I can't be the girl you want me to be.
I'm sorry I can't be those kind of people you read in stories that excel in both sports and studies.
I'm sorry I'm not good at anything.
I'm sorry for liking manicure and you say it's a waste of time.
I'm sorry for not being obedient, just that I have my own thoughts, and I think you should know.
I'm sorry for myself because you saw something ain't going right and you didn't ask why. You didn't. You just didn't.
I'm sorry I can't catch up with my studies, you don't know how hard it is. I've tried and tried and tried, I just can't seem to do it. I don't know any other method. Don't compare me. I'm different.
I'm sorry I have different goals than normal 17 year old girl.
I'm sorry for not wanting to study law or medication or piloting. STOP COMPARING ME!! I'M SO FUCKING FUCKING TIRED! I'M SO FUCKING SICK!!

You don't know how hard it is.
You don't know how pain it is.
You don't know the feeling.
And you'll never know.

I don't like the way you ask me 'What do you want me to do?"
Well, if I knew, I wouldn't be stuck in here.

You ask me "What about your friends? They can catch up as well, what can't you?"
Here's my answer: I CAN'T!! I JUST FUCKING CAN'T! I'M SO FAR BEHIND!! ASK THEM RUN, SEE HOW FAR BEHIND THEY WILL BE! THAT'S ME COMPARE TO THEM! GIVE ME A BREAK! GOD!

yes, I am still not feeling any better, I'm still crying.

I am so tired. I am don't like the way you suggest me to do this and do that. I have my own brain and yes, I've tried everything you suggested. It's so hard. I've been learning with an open mind it's just that I don't get it. I'm not that smart okay! I'm not that stupid either. God is just playing a trick on me and I can't get over it. I'm not a good player, I'm just a goal keeper. I defend. I don't attack.. That's why I can only write it down here. I can't say it out. I just can't.
Sorry.

Ask me how I'm feeling today will you?

I Gotta Heal My Soul

2011-01-22T22:22:00.000-08:00

Okay To Cry
J.Rice

I don't know where to go from here,
cause anywhere that I go , you're there
so many streets, different names,
but they all lead to the same lonely place
And I don't know how to start again,
...don't even know where or how to begin

Cause when you're this low everywhere you try to go
looks like a dead end
And now that everything is over..

I'll cry, if I still hurt, I'll cry,
cause after I feel better,
It's to hard to keep inside
all the emotion I feel tonight
I'll cry, I'll cry,
It's so hard for another love,
finding yourself after you break up
( It's okay to cry )

Found [? ... ?]
I lost my balance when you let go,
I get up again, fall in love again, I gotta heal my soul
And when the past brings back the pain,
don't be afraid to face the rain
cause it don't wash away any trace of yesterday,
and you feel OK,
but after everything is over,
if I still hurt...

[ From: http://www.metrolyrics.com/okay-to-cry-lyrics-j-rice.html ]

I'll cry, I'll cry,
It's to hard to keep inside
all the emotion I feel tonight
I'll cry, I'll cry,
It's so hard for another love,
finding yourself after you break up

A broken heart will stop the world from spinning,
a second chance will wait for you to start living again...
I'm maybe down but I ain't out forever,
I'm holding out for something so much better

but if I ever hurt...

I'll cry, I'll cry,
It's to hard to keep inside
all the emotion I feel tonight
I'll cry, I'll cry,
It's so hard for another love,
finding yourself after you break up

( It's OK to cry )
( It's OK to cry, to cry )
( It's OK to cry... )

We have bad days, dark days that we only feel like lying in bed, feeling sorry for ourselves. We don't feel like eating or when we start eating, we don't want to stop. We feel that something is wrong and that something should be fixed.. but what? What is it?
I haven't find that answer out yet. At some point I'd want to know what it is but sometimes, who would want to, when you can just lie around, feeling sorry for yourself and wallop down endless chocolates?
But the time won't stop spinning and I won't be getting any younger but the pain is pulling me down. I've been feeling down recently, a lot of things seem to piss me of, little things, things I shouldn't be bothering about. I did some research and it says I am just having a bad day.. but I've been having A LOT of bad days, too many anyhow. I don't know what to do and I'm not planning to do anything about it now anyway.
So, tell me how you are feeling. Share with me. Maybe you'll feel better. It's good to let go what's been inside of you.

"If everything is over and I still feel the pain, I'll cry, it's so hard falling out of love."

If I ever hurt again, I'll cry, I'll let the whole world know that I've been hurt. I don't want to be sympathized, I just want to let my feelings out and I don't really care to who, not now anyway. I'll cry if it gets worse. I'll cry when I think about it. I'll cry because that's the only answer. I'll cry because I feel so much better after. I want to stand outside under the rain, look up and smile as the rain wash away my yesterday. I want the world to know it's okay to cry. There's nothing to be ashamed about. It's too hard to keep inside, all the emotions you feel inside.

You'll feel okay

Keep Your Mind Wide Open

2011-01-18T03:54:00.000-08:00

Keep Your Mind Wide Open
Annasophia Robb

Have you ever seen the sky so
Beautiful, colorful
Wide and wonderful
Have you ever felt the sunshine so
Brilliantly raining down
Over you and me

Have you ever wanted more?
Wanted more?

You've got to keep your mind wide open
All the possibilities
You've got to live with your eyes open
Believe in what you see

Think of all the days you've wasted
Worrying, wondering
Hopelessly hoping
Think of all the time ahead
Don't hesitate, contemplate
No it's not too late

Have you ever wanted more?
Wanted more?
Don't you know there's so much more

You've got to keep your mind wide open
All the possibilities
You've got to live with your eyes open
Believe in what you see

Tomorrows horizons full of surprises
Don't let them take your dreams away

You've got to keep your mind wide open
All the possibilities
You've got to live with your eyes open
Believe in what you see

You've got to keep your mind wide open
All the possibilities
You've got to live with your eyes open
Believe in what you see

You've got to keep your mind wide open
Believe in what you see

You've got to live with your eyes open
Believe in what you see

Whip Your Hair

2011-01-13T05:23:00.000-08:00

OH MY GOD!! It's my fifth and final school country run! Time fly so fast! I remember as if it were yesterday that I won first place but sadly, didn't break the record. Sigh.. This year I hope to break the school record as well as get first place. I've been training..

I'M GONNA WHIP MY HAIR!!!!

Back To December

2010-12-30T21:08:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone! It's 1.1.11 today. All the ones involving this year should be spent specially.
Today I had a memorable day. So this morning I did my first 5km run with Debbie and then after shower and all that we went to Bekerly Corner to wait for Shin Huey come pick us up. Both her sister went as well.
Drove up to Wen's place and we sat her Unser up to pyramid, 10 in the morning! Haha!
So there were like 1184 parkings available and I think I should go and buy number.. kidding..
So we went to try to the first shop and if I am not mistaken, it was Voir and half way through testing, we met up with Won and Isaac. We went to like a thousand and one shops and tried on every possible design we could find. This time around I just grab what I see that is nice and who knew, ended up it was that kind of clothes that I bought, those that I picked up specifically ended up looking weird on me.
Enough of that, so I just want to say I had a fabulous time and I am so excited for that day we could all go out again. Oh and did I mention, I have been going to Pyramid three days in a row: a Thursday with Wen and Deb; Friday with family and Saturday with Wen, Deb, Won, Isaac, Huey, Yie and her sister. HAHA!
So we had J.Co donuts for breakfast and Kim Gary for lunch *if I am not mistaken*. Then we went for more shopping and new year clothes hunting as well as shoes searching.

Anyway, back to the topic. It's already January and man, how I wish it was December. I am so not ready for 2011. Even if I were, I wished that it was December already, when all I left is another holiday and exams and competitions are all over and I can start college, study what I like not history or whatever. I've got to be patient.

So I am dedicating this post to my dear wife and hope that she has time to read this till the bottom. I want her to know that she is way stronger than she thinks she is. I want her to know that God is on her side and He has this special way of treating people. I want her to know that I am just a text/phone call away. I want her to know that I will always be there for her and yes, I have hurt her before but I am still there for her no matter what. I want her to know that I am sorry for kind of not being there for her last semester and I won't repeat the same mistake again. I want her to know that I am all ears for her. I want her to know the whole team supports her. I want her to know that no matter what, there is someone there for her, all she needs to do is reach out. I know it's gonna be a tough year ahead, but we are all going through this together, just remember.

Deb wrote this on her temporary blog, so I want to paste it here for remembrance:
yan xiang and yiwen
when im at my lowest, you guys have been encouraging me especially in water polo and thanks to you guys i'm a little fitter. i have been spending time mostly together with you guys these holidays and i cant wait for another training session again to see you guys. so see you guys next year and have fun in 2011!

okay, I might edit this post tomorrow or something.. Stay tuned.
Take care.

2010-12-26T21:58:00.000-08:00

What's the reason we can't fall in love?

Decorations

2010-12-12T07:27:00.000-08:00

I was a little boy of nine years old, the whole world in my hands, trying to toss that ball across that yard. A game of catch with my old man. He would always I'm sorry, every time he had to leave. I was much too young to understand, when he would say to me, when you're young, you'll always think, the sun is going to shine, there will come a day, when you'll have to say hello to goodbye. Sit down son come take my hand, look me in the eye, take these words and promise me you'll live before you die. -Bon Jovi- -Live Before You Die-

Hello all! Christmas is like around the corner and I am like so excited! Well, partly is because in my swimming club, they are having this X'mas party and me and one of my friend were to dress up as some retard Santarina person and give presents? Will take pictures but I won't promise to upload though.. =P
So, according to her, the dress would be just freaking huge and shapeless and think and hot and just freaking pathetic! And I am kind of excited to see what I can make out of the costume, with some belts and some glitter, I hope to make it look.. presentable? o.O

Well anyway it's the holidays and I came up with this new hobby - painting/drawing nails. Dad bought me some fake nails and some nail deco from online but they haven't arrive so for the time being I can only draw with my own nails, which is kind of frustrating because the color just wouldn't go evenly because of my hands shaking. Well, I have to be patient and wait till I can practice them on the fake nails.. Sounds kind of wrong but whatever.
I was thinking if these nail deco do work out, I might be able to sell them and earn some pocket money. Not that I am really short of cash or whatever but just that I don't like asking money from my parents so very often. They have been paying my stuff a lot already, like my tuition fees, training fees, new shoes and clothing and all that. So, if I can, I would like to earn some money myself to spend. Like recently I have been coaching kids swimming in my club and hoping that I get more money this time than the last.

Oh and recently, I have come back to realize that I still love dogs.. and kids. According to Dad, it's because it is pay back from my last life. So now I have to like dogs to clean up their poop and feed them if I do have one. That's what he said about dogs.. Now what about kids?

Okay, I think I will stop here. Take care all. My recent quote: Love God and live life to the max.

Teenagers

2010-12-08T07:57:00.000-08:00

They gonna clean up your looks, with all the lies in the books, to make a citizen out of you. because they sleep with a gun, and keep an eye on you, son, so they can watch all the things you do. Because the drugs never work, they're gonna give you a smirk, 'cause they got methods to keep you all clean. They gonna rip up your head, your aspiration to shred, another cog in the murderer machine. They say all teenagers scare the living shit out of me. They could care less as long as someone will bleed, so darken your clothes or strike a violent pose, maybe they'll leave you alone, but not me. -Teenagers- -My Chemical Romance-

Hello everyone. :) It's rather late, a quoter past twelve already but I just want to write something down here as I wait for Glee to load. Sometimes I don't understand why the line goes so fast and other time, it takes FOREVER to load. It's really frustrating.

Anyway, I don't recall telling you guys about going down to Malacca last weekend for centralized training. And OMFG, it was just so so very tiring. There were land training, swimming, keeper's program, walking, jumping, more swimming again and then some shooting and thank God there is game. I was so tired didn't even bother to count the laps when swimming but instead did a countdown of the training session. A total of four hours.. Gosh! I can't believe that I am still alive and I am grateful to be able to be here writing this post down. :D

But, however hard training will be or however hard they try to push me down because I am too young or because they feel sending one is better or whatever other reasons they might come out, I am determined to play for Sea Games 2011 and I am determined to have Cap 1. Also I pray for my teammates to get selected as well, especially Deb Cap 2, Wen Cap 8 and Won Cap 7. Please God, let them send the four of us together. I promise you we will play our very best throughout the entire matches.

Moving on, I have studies to catch up on since this year has been more on sports than on my studies and I think it is about time to do some polishing up and adding some fact knowledge into this rusty brain of mine. =P So, to those who know teachers for Chemistry, Physics and Biology. PAAAHHLEASE let me know! :( I don't want to be imbalance XD

Oh and dear body, you are forbidden to fall sick again. Love, Xiang.

Okay, I think it's about time to stop here. I'll talk to you guys some other time. Take care everyone. Good night.

All I Want For Christmas

2010-12-01T07:16:00.000-08:00

Easy come, easy go, that's just how you live oh~ Take, take, take it all but you never give. Should have known you were trouble from the first kiss, had your eyes wide open. Why were they open? Gave you what I had and you toss it in the trash, you tossed it in the trash, you did. To give me all your love is all I ever asked, because, what you don't understand is, I'll catch a grenade for you, throw my hand on a blade for you, I'll jump in front of a train for you. You know I'll do anything for you. I'll go through all this pain, take a bullet straight through my brain. Yes I would die for you baby. But you wouldn't do the same. -Bruno Mars- -Grenade-

Hello. Today is the first day of December and I wish this month would be the best month this year for you and everyone.
Okay, here's the thing. I just came back from training and I guess I'm just a little tired that's why I seem a bit down. Just that sometimes when you're tired and you just don't want to make decisions or do anything and people come and make you to do so, asking you stupid questions and want your reply at that very moment and when you don't answer them, they start talking in all sorts of languages, asking you over and over again and you get really pissed off and all you can say is 'whatever'. Well, here's my case I guess. Pissed.

Moving on, I'm going down to Malacca this Friday, Saturday and Sunday. And according to the guys, it's for Sea Games selections but I think this training camp is just part of it. I think the coach wants us to come up to Malacca once a while, to see how good we are, see how much we improved and all that. That way, I guess he wouldn't choose the wrong people.
Also, for Sea Games, it will be host next year, I think it will be clashing SPM, well actually I really hope and pray it will CLASH. Yes, I want Sea Games 2011 to clash with SPM 2011. Why? Well, because I really want to go for Sea Games 2011 and I am really not ready for SPM. I can't catch up with my form4's syllabus just yet, so with Sea Games *praying hard that I can go and play* clashing with SPM, I can have an extra year to catch up. Anyway, that is not the point. I want to play for Sea Games is because of a lot of reasons.

I want to prove that it doesn't matter who you were in the past, as long as you work hard for it, you can reach the stars, you be who you want to be.

I want to show that especially to my brother it is not all about sports, studies are just as important as well. Hopefully *pray I can play for Sea Games 2011* having that chance to go for Sea Games, and that extra year to study, I can achieve good results as well as achieve something in sports.

I want to prove to those who once had me down, that all the hard work DOES pay off. We just don't know when it will be. I don't care if I bleed or I injure or I am beaten down hard, I know the feeling that when you hold that medal in your hands or even just to get a chance to be in the team, to contribute something for the team, the feeling can't be describe.

I want everyone to know that obesity, that being overweight can be cured. All you just need to do is to exercise the right way and eating the right way.. Okay, that was weird. Going to Sea Games has nothing to do with overweight.. *Pray I can go to Sea Games 2011*

Also, I just want to show everyone that no matter how hard life beats you down, you have to have your head held high, like a princess *quote Demi Lovato* and keep moving on. It is okay to look back once in a while and cry and regret but no matter what, we have to move on sometimes, to make things right this time and to hope that when we look back at our past one day, we will smile. Yes, I have been through rough times that I do not want to mention, but so did you. So, in hands we shall move along.

All I want to do is to play for the 2011 Sea Games.

Oh and last but not least, I thank you sincerely for reading this post. Yea I understand that it is a bit longer than usual, or just plain too long, but I am typing all this out from the bottom of my heart. Thanks again for sparing your time reading this. May God bless you and let me have the chance to be selected for Sea Games and contribute to the team, not forgetting my other Water Polo players. Amen.

Okay, to end this post, here's a great finishing sentence:
To those who pissed you off and have you live in misery, go suck:

A HOT DOG

First Day Of Work

2010-11-27T01:38:00.000-08:00

Please come home for Christmas, please come home for Christmas. If not by New Year's night. Friends and relations send salutations, just as sure as the stars shine above, yes they do. This is Christmas, Christmas my dear. The time of the year to be with the one that you love. Then won't you tell me? You'll never more roam, Christmas and New Year.. Christmas and New Year's. Will find you at home, there will be no more sorrow, no grief or pain. I'll be happy that it's Christmas once again. -Bon Jovi- -Please Come Home For Christmas-

Hello everyone! How is your weekend going? Mine has been really interesting and I really learned a lot of things.. Heh Heh..

So, today mind the date above, 29th November 2010, I have started my very first swimming coaching. It was really a great experience, to teach all the kids and to have to follow the boss' coaching method, to be really careful the kids are safe and their parents would not complain.
Seriously, I was damn scared the parents would complain.. One of them was even taking photos or video taping of his kid when I was coaching him. Really scary but I like! =P

So for starters I was thrown into the pool by the boss, Uncle Thomas and my other mate, Nike. Hehe.. I screamed just for fun. Mana tau no people react... =.=! Not supporting =/ Haha

Then, since it is the end of the month, I got my pay!! WhooHoo! Haha.. Okay I admit, it was only RM20.. But hey, for 45minutes, due to rain and the next class cancellation, it's alright I guess. Plus, it was fun and wonderful experience.. Hohoho!

Then they have this Christmas party coming on in 3 weeks time and it's free for coaches.. I think.. because last time as a student there, we have to pay but this time, Ms Boss or Auntie Susan just asked us to come and enjoy.. Hmm.. So I will just assume it's free. XD

Sorry I am bragging all this. But I am really excited for my next coaching, which when I'd be in Melacca for centralized training but they will not be having enough hands on Sunday and I guess I have to go back to help out.. I don't know.. Gah!

Okay, that's all.. I am really excited! This week might be fun! =P

21

2010-11-18T18:59:00.000-08:00

I see you driving round town with the girl I love and I'm like forget you. I guess the change in my pocket wasn't enough, I'm like forget you and forget her too. I said, if I was richer, I'd still be with you. Oh, ain't that some shit? And although there's pain in my chest I still wish you the best, with a forget you. Yeah, I'm sorry, I can't afford a Ferrari, that don't mean I can't get you there. Well, he's an X-box and I'm more Atari, but the way you play your game ain't fair. I pity the fool that falls in love with you. I got some news for you. Yeah, go home and tell your little boyfriend. -Cee Lo -Forget You/Fuck You-

Hey there! Guess what? I am completed my very first 21km marathon! It is also known as the half marathon and boy, that was indeed a tough run. I wanted to quit so badly but thank God I didn't. The pain was all worth it. And after my run, I could barely walk at all! I kind of didn't train that much, so lesson learned. =P

Oh, actually I ran the Penang Bridge Marathon on 21st of November. Half way through, it rained cats and dogs, and it was freezing cold but I am kind of used to it. If it wasn't the rain, I don' t think I would actually made it 2 hours and 58 minutes. =P
Yes, I know I took a very long time but I didn't train and had some problems with my shoes. I had to walk half way there as well. =(
Anyhow I managed to complete the race before the qualifying time ends.. Whoohoo! Haha!
It was a great experience as we have to reach there at 12am as the bridge closes at one. Then we waited for the full marathon runners to start their run at 2am then the half marathon, which is the one I ran, at 3am and later at 6am, it was the quater marathon flag off.

So some pictures I took throughout the 2days 1night stay at Penang.

We reached there around 4pm or so, and had dinner at 6pm after checking in the rooms and went to the beach a while as well as a sneak peak at my coach's club. =P

Char Kuey Tiao
Rm 5

Duck Kuey Tiao
Rm 3

Left my cozy bed at around 11.30pm to get ready to
Queens Bay Mall, Penang.

The flag off for Half Marathon

Arrived at destination after my
first 21km

!!Medal!!

Breakfast at Hotel Naza
=)
I was so hungry I had 3 rounds of food

Alright folks, I got to go now. Nothing much to say except the whole run was a wonderful experience and I don't know when I will be ready for another 21km or even the 42km full marathon. Well, have to train and train and train and rest! =)

Jam Packed

2010-11-07T06:27:00.000-08:00

There were nights when the wind was so cool, and my body frozen there if I just listen to it right outside the window. There were days when the sun was so cool, and all the tears turn to dusk and I just knew my eyes were drying forever. I finished crying at the instant that you left, and I can't remember when or where or how, and I banished every memory that you and I have ever made. -Meat Loaf- -It's all coming back to me now-

Welcome to another post! =P

Here's a thought, have you ever felt lost?
Have you ever felt empty?
Have you ever felt cold?
Have you ever felt scared?
Have you ever felt helpless?
Have you ever felt like screaming?
Have you ever felt angry?
Have you ever felt like cursing?
Have you ever felt no one understands?
Have you ever felt like you needed a break?
Or even just button of pause?

Have you ever felt glad?
Have you ever felt satisfied?
Have you ever felt on top on the world?
Have you ever felt good?
Have you ever felt happy?
Have you ever felt that the wind is fresher?
Have you ever felt the drops of rain?
Have you ever felt the air?
Have you ever replay your memories?
Or do you do them everyday?

Hey all.. Sorry for the weird intro, just that I really tired and I just don't feel like going to sleep or do anything else. Hungry~

So this weekend is another busy one.. or shall I put it as everything-just-fucking-clashed-together-of-all-the-times-to-clash-it-has-to-be-this-weekend!
So tomorrow morning's training is going to start late and then it was before I agreed to go to KL's training... There will hardly be any break in it anyway... Gonna be tired. Never mind that, I totally forgot that my cousin's birthday dinner is tomorrow night as well! GOSH! It's going to be a really tiring night.. Hope all goes well. =/

Then on Sunday, I totally planned with my friends to go to our teacher's wedding lunch. Because my usual Sunday training is in the morning, so we've planned to go in two cars and the first car which is my dad's can drive me back whilst the second can bring the others back.. Now.. I think training is in the morning already because the guys want to go Melacca to train.

I kind of feel bad to have to change their plan.. I really don't know how to open my mouth sometimes, I don't know how to ask, I don't want to lie and I don't want to hurt anyone's feelings. I have been hurt and I know how bad it can actually get.

Sometimes, I sort of wish I am those who don't have anything to do. They can just sleep however long they like and wake up whatever time they want. But I also sometimes love my life this way.. It keeps me busy and it keeps me distracted and it keeps boredom away. :)

I was watching 'Are you afraid of the dark' until the line got really bad. Did you know they starred it in 1992 and ended the production in 2000. And I am now trying to catch up with the 'trend'. =P
A very successful production to me. I mean, come on, it's been TEN years and there are still people, I believe, that are still watching it.. like me! Heh Heh!

Alright, it's nearly 1am already and I think I should go off. Today's training was exhausting.
Take care all! Good night!

Breakaway

2010-11-03T21:48:00.000-07:00

Grew up in a small town, and when the rain would fall down, I'd just stare out my window. Dreaming of what could be and if I'd end up happy, I would pray. Wanted to belong here, but something felt so wrong here, so I pray, I would breakaway. I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, though it's not easy to tell you goodbye. -Kelly Clarkson- - Breakaway-

Hey all.. It's Deepavali and I am wishing those celebrating this festive season a Happy Deepavali and may you guys stay safe and drive safe.

Recently, I went to another trip with Debbie to Genting Highlands. Lovely cooling place with lots of activities to do.
They have indoors and outdoors activity and an arcade. We only went to the indoors and arcade.
Dang, I wasted lot of money there for 3 tiny bears! =P
Everything there is expensive, even a bag of cotton candy is RM3 while here, it cost less than RM2. The hot dog with mayo and tomato sauce, without cucumber whatsoever cost RM5! And a cup of sweet corn was RM4!! Fly $$ fly~ T.T

We had a one night stay there and we went to explore the place while her parents went for gambling at night, we somehow somewhat managed to walk out from the hotel and ended up on the streets. It's okay except it was freezing cold outside there were thick fogs and it was freezing cold and you can't see a thing and did I mention it was freezing cold? *Brrrrr~*

Oh and because Debbie's dad had some kind of Genting card we got to eat at a fancy restaurant with a free two hours kareoke! And it was quite fun though it was fake air, not the real cool Genting Highlands air that I miss so much now. I wonder if I would have the chance to live there, hmm.. maybe not Genting, Cameron Highlands would be better as they produce fresh fruits and vegetables and also flowers and cactus there. Oh and did I mention my favorite STRAWBERRY!! =D I heart strawberry! =P

Nothing much to write about anyway, and if you were wondering what is the picture below, it's the coupons we won in the arcade which we spent almost a hundred RM there and got back a purple mug and a purple bear. Adorable bear~

Mom asked me to give them away but I want to keep the purple one. It's special. =P
How we got it? Actually we got it with our water polo skills. Haha! They stacked up the tins into a pyramid and give you two balls to throw. I insisted for a pink ball when they gave Debbie her orange ball (which is her favorite color). You have to hit at least three tins down for a prize and my first throw two fell down, Debbie shot one more down. She was freaking accurate! =D
*Hope she does the same in games though*

So, nothing much to say. We want to find girl players for next year National Age Group. If you know any girls who can swim the four strokes, please ask her to join us. We welcome those who are interested. Thanks!

Okay, that's all I guess. Take care all! Have a nice weekend.

Never

2010-11-01T01:13:00.000-07:00

You will never know how I feel.

You will never know how it hurts.
You will never know such pain.
You will never shed these tears.
You will never understand.
You will never feel how I feel.
You will never know how much I tried.
You will never feel that helpless.
You will never pain it hurtsYou will never care about anyone but yourself.
You will never understand the unfairness.
You will never taste the bitterness.
You will never hear the shout.
You will never smell the blood.
You will never see the tears streaming down those eyes.
You will never feel so betrayed.
You will never try again, like I did.
You will never know how hard everything will be ...
You will never work for something as badYou will never feel the pain and the sourness in your heart.
You will never act as good as me.
You will never know what it is like to beloved.
You will never know what it is like to not feeling love.
You will never see the look on my face.
You will never not love.
You will never shut up to a melody so beautiful.
You will never cry because you are sad.
You will never be sorry.
You will never know what it is like to be me.

Of Golden Horses

2010-10-27T02:29:00.000-07:00

I was thinking about her, thinking about me, thinking about us, what we gonna be, open my eyes, it was only just a dream~ So I travel back, down the road, will she come back? No one knows, I realized it was only just a dream~ -Nelly- -Just a dream-

Hey all! I should have updated this post long time ago, but due to some internet connections, I couldn't upload the pictures here... but all is well now. =D

So a few weeks ago, Debbie invited me to have a stay at Palace Of The Golden Horses, a 5 star hotel near Serdang I guess? She was on the way to pick me up when suddenly there was a change of plan where we have to bring her cousins along too..
By the way I was told that they are quite horrible but I actually like them! =D
Yes, I kind of bond with kids pretty well! Heh heh!

Anyway the trip was just freaking awesome! Thanks Deb if you are reading this.

So, here are some of the pictures I took:

The horse sculpture

Me touching the roof

The kids, Jimmy and Genie

Kids, maid and Debbie

Love the place!

Alot of SS

Vincent with his cupcake

Had juice works at Midvalley
before departing

We went straight to training after that, was very tired...
Okay, I got to go now.. Well, will update as soon as possible peps!

Send Me Away With A Love Song

2010-10-11T09:10:00.000-07:00

If I die young, bury me in satin, lay me down in a bed of roses, sink me in the river at down, send me away in the words of a love song, I had just enough time~ -If I die young- -The Band Perry-

Hey all! I had only five minutes to create this post, so if you read anything funny like stupid mistakes its really not my intention. I have limited time and I need to use them to study. I don't want to end up with a lifetime of regrets for a three minute joy.
I am having a three weeks exam and history just passed. Next is Moral. Another subject that needs to be memorized... sigh...!

I am addicted to this song 'If I die young'. That's partly why I am here online. I HAD JUST ENOUGH TIME~~ JUST PUT ON YOUR BEST BOY, AND I'LL WEAR MY PEARLS~ =P

Anyway, I am going to pass all my subjects this time. I mean it. I am going to put in a hundred and ten percent in it this time. I don't want to fail this time. I will pass all of my exams for this year end examination. I promise myself that. =/

Then I can enjoy. Then I can concentrate on running my first 21km and do my first 50km walk in 12 hours and have people, especially girls, to join polo! =)

Okay, five minutes in up. I got to go.. Take care all!

I am breaking through this wall

A Tear

2010-10-06T06:42:00.000-07:00

Every word feels like a shooting star, I'm at the edge of my emotions, watching the shadows burning in the dark, and I'm in love and I'm terrified, for the first time and the last time in my only life~ -Katherin Mcphee- -Terrified-

I'm at the edge of my emotions lately, really don't feel like doing anything. But sigh.. I got to keep following the pace with every other people in this world.

I am really very tired. I am tired of being the slower learner. I am tired of being the one to give others hope to move on with their lives although I am slowly dying inside myself.
I am tired of faking smiles infront of everyone acting like nothing has happened. I am tired of giving that extra "ha" during conversations.
I am tired of crying for I know I can't stop when I start but I also can't stop myself from crying. I realized after every cry, I feel cold and empty inside.
Yes, I'll never love again. It makes me ill. I am tired of thinking of you. I am tired of missing you. I am tired. Just tired. So very tired.

Also I would be happy if you don't ask me what happen if you see me. I feel terrible but I don't like to talk things out. I know what I am capeable of, how to handle myself and controlling my emotions and talking about it is not really part of if.
Yes, I will tell you when the time is right, but I just want you to know it isn't right now.
I don't know when will it be but I do know the day will arrive.

Sometimes I blame.
I blame God why he'd do all this to me. I blame him for putting all this hard tasks on the sixteen year old me. I blame him for plotting this for me.
Then, I blame him. I blame him for doing all this to me. I blame him just so much that I start to hate him but I know I can't. I blame him so much that I don't see the sparks when I see his name anymore.
I also blame her. She makes me feel jealousy. I don't like her. I can't bare the way she talks, the way she walks and the way she laughs. I can't stand watching her that I have to delete her and block her. It is easy on facebook but not reality.
Last, I blame myself. They say it is not healthy. They say it is not good. But when I blame myself, I remind myself that I'll never love again. That is good.

So yeah, I am still fucking depressed now. And because of that I am feeling the kick coming back for my urge to run again. Well, guess there is a bright side for feeling down, dissapointed, angry, sad, stupid, empty, wasted, disgrace and every other feeling I feel now. Sigh...

A tear contains of 1% water, 99% feelings

Speechless

2010-10-03T05:18:00.001-07:00

Listening to this awesome song now which is totally telling about what I am going through.

Lady Gaga

Speechless

Hoow?
Ha-ooow?

Hoow?

I can't believe what you said to me

last night we were alone
You threw your hands up

baby you gave up

you gave up

I can't believe how you looked at me

with your James Dean glossy eyes

In your tight jeans

and your long hair

AND YOU CIGARETTE STAINED LIES

Could we fix you if you broke?

Is your punch line just a joke?

I'll never talk again

Oh boy you left me speechless

you left me speechless

so speechless

And I'll never love again

Oh boy you left me speechless

you left me speechless

so speechless

I can't believe how you slurred at me

with your half wired broken jaw

you popped my heart seams

on my bubble dreams

bubble dreams

I can't believe how you looked at me

with your Jonnie Walker eyes

He's gonna get you

and after he's through

There's gonna be no love left to rye

I know that it is complicated
but I'm a loser in love

So baby raise a glass to mend

all broken hearts

of all my wrecked up friends

I'll talk never talk again

oh boy you left me speechless

so speechless

I'll never love again

oh friend you left me speechless

You left me speechless

so speechless

How??

Ha-oooow?

Howw?

Haoww?

Hooo?

And after all the drinks and bars we've been to

Would you give it all up?

Could I give it all up to you?

And after all the boys and girls we've been through

Would you give it all up?

Could I give it all up to you?

If I promise boy to you

And I'll never talk again

And I'll never love again

I'll never write a song

Won't even sing along

I'll NEVER LOVE AGAIN.

Hoo-ooooowww?

So speechless hey yay~
you left me speechless

So speechless

Will you ever talk again?
Oh boy why you so speechless?

You left me speechless

so speechless

Some men may follow me

but you choose

"death and company"

Why you so speechless

Oh- oh

I'll NEVER LOVE AGAIN.

Back

2010-09-28T05:06:00.000-07:00

If I could write you a song that will make you fall in love, I would already have you up under my arms, I used up all of my tricks I hope that you like this, but you probably won't, you think you're cooler than me~ -Cooler than me- -Mike Posner-

Hey all! I am back from my first Malaysia Open!! This time we had a really nice and wonderful experience and the game was just good enough, yes not perfect but oh well, compared to last competition, it was better.

We are all exhausted and so very tired. Oh, who wouldn't anyway.. Plus, I lost my voice after shouting too much during the first match and thank God I had strepsils to suck on, a little too many anyway. =b

Well, here are some pictures taken throughout this four days three night trip in Melacca.

Notice the leg?
XD

His head got stuck between the cushions!!!

and he was laughing

...

cool kid

...

Mind my spelling:
Yit Jia from Singapore

The chicken rice balls~
They tasted alot more better compared in Klang's
o.O

Syok Sendiri

We came out the NEWS!!!

Wen holding the bus

Nice effect eh?

Heh Heh Heh

Another syok sendiri

Xiang and Debbie

Don't know is too tired or too stressed out
...

Our coach

Group photo

I am standing behind the camera

>.<

Oh and also I had to represent the team for

team managers' meeting

Scary but fun

And last but not least

...

My personal favourite picture

...

Xiang and Lionnel

Hmm.. Nothing much to talk about. We got third place... The guys got seventh...

That's all. Bye~

Gratitude

2010-08-19T02:46:00.000-07:00

Baby you know it, baby it's time for miracles, because I ain't giving up on us..I ain't giving up on love.. Baby can you feel it, come alive. You know I can hear it, hear it in this song. Baby what are you feeling, feeling you. Baby you know it's time, it's time for miracles! -Adam Lambert- -Time For Miracles-

Hey all! The much anticipated 53rd MILO/PRAM Malaysia Invitational Open Water Polo Championship will be held in Melacca from 23th to 25th September 2010. There is a women's event this year and we are recruting more female players to join this event and also to bring back all the players who had left since NAG.
This opportunity is not easy to get and we are very grateful that we got to the chance play for this Malaysia's Open. I am very proud and happy for representing our state, Selangor and we are hoping for the very best.

We will be competing against Melacca and one other country for this meet. This is very important to us and we are training really hard to fight for the best! That is to be able to play for this Malaysia's Open 2010 and win Melacca's team.

I am really very grateful to have succeed in finding 13 good, talented and enthusiastic female players to join our team. This is our first time and it is going really well. I am very happy!
I appreciate the enthusiam and sacrifices we have all put in Water Polo to play for Malaysia's Open 2010. I know we can compete with the Melacca's girls team as well as another female team from another country, say Indonesia or Singapore or maybe even Hong Kong? As long as we can compete which I strongly believe we can, I am very grateful.

I know, I understand and I believe the organizers will give an extra help in having this Malaysia's Open Women's Water Polo event to go on like the Men's Water Polo. I am very grateful for the organizers to help us host this Malaysia's Open Women's Water Polo 2010 event. I feel happy as we get a chance to play, to show what we are capable to and to compete against Melacca and another country. I believe and I trust we can do this!

May we all believe anything is possible like we are having a Women's Water Polo event in this Malaysia's Open 2010 that will be held from 23th to 25th September 2010 in Melacca.
I am very grateful and so are you.

Recovery Month

2010-08-10T02:36:00.000-07:00

Just gonna stand there and watch my cry, it's alright coz I love the way you lie.. Just gonna stand there and watch my burn, that's alright because I love the way it hurts... I love the way you lie~ I love the way you lie~ -Love the way you lie- -Rihanna & Eminem-

What's up all? Tomorrow is Bulan Puasa. So it will mean that there will not be anymore runs this entire month and it will also mean that it will be my Recovery Month. According to doctor, I have somehow somewhat injured my knees due to wrong running posture and bone growth blah blah blah... So he has given me some kind of special shoe insole to wear and see how it goes.
Well, I tried running a fun run last Sunday wearing the insoles and they didn't hurt that much!
Just now, I ran another 3km plus and it felt okay. =)

Rights, so anyway, these pictures below shows the last run before I totally couldn't stand for more than 1 minute without feeling pain in my knees.

St. John's Run 4 Kidney 7km. Damn..it was damn horrible the run was.. I was feeling pain around the second km in my knees and started walking at around the third km. Freaking sad run I feel.. Quite dissapointed at my timing and results.
Though indeed I won number 5..but I could have done for first or second place if it wasn't the fucking pain in my knees..
And it hurts so bad the next day. = C

Pitures not taken by me by the way.. hehe

So here they are: The freaking horrible run I had on first of August 2010:
Hope I will have a better one next year.

The starting

I am the one in white..
the yellow shirt is some girl from Kuang Hua

At first she was leading and then I cut her..

then she cut me..then I cut her..

Then we ran together

But at last sprint, my legs were longer

So I met Nike and her school mates...

See the patch?

It's my sweating arse's

There, group photo with Nike and her mates..

I can't remember their names whatsoever

but I met one of the at Popular's yesterday

somehow we didn't recognize each other

till today I remembered why she looked so familiar

But too late to say hi now right?

Hehe

Okay, it's quite late already so I guess I'd have to go. Will update more about my other runs... Take care all! Bye~

PS: I like calling my runs 'Marathons', so if you don't like it, live with it. I don't care.

Flying Time

2010-08-04T06:11:00.000-07:00

Did I ever tell you I'm better to have to known you, I don't want to leave you with a shadow of undoubt, did I ever give you the streght you've given me and how can I begin to make each moment mean the most so you will see? I never love you more than I do today~ -Did I ever tell you- -Nick Lachey-

Hey all! Time flies so quickly! I remember it was just July when I sat down and wrote down a post here and look! It's already forth of August!!

August is also known as Bulan Puasa. So it means there will be less physical activity and more exams!! ARGH!! Anyway, I have injured my legs and just this afternoon I went for a check up. Doctor said my knee cap is out of place and it is running everyway, he says. I don't know.
I am to go back to the clinic this Friday and do some leg muscles activity. Hope my legs heal faster so that I can continue running.

Well, I also know that I have bad walking form so needless to mention about the running form. Arghh! What the heck! Hopefully things will work out for me! =/

Anyway a big birthday shout-out to Klevin (Picture of the botak boy below) for making into the BIG 1 !! Congratz little cousin. I'm sorry I couldn't make it to your party, I had my first night run that night and I bet you had a wonderful time!!

I think I should go. Take care you'll!! Have a pleasent day =)

TAR Open

2010-07-30T01:10:00.000-07:00

I got your emails, you just don't get females now do you? What's in my head is not in your mind anyway. You got to cry me out~ You got to cry me out~ The tears that I fall, mean nothing at all, it's time to get over yourself~ You can keep talking but baby, I'm walking away~

Hey all! What's up?? Recently, TAR College had hosted their 2nd Water Polo Championship. We girls went there as Famme Fatale and the guys as Selangor. So unfair!!
Anyway, I had one of my best match against TAR college and yes, we won them and got into the final eight!! =D

Well, here are some of the pictures I took during TAR Open and unfortunately, I forgotten to bring my camera the second day so these pictures are all from the first day, the day that we had 4 matches!

Oh and I went for Siemen's 6km Run the next day. Damn shit. They have 75 medals to give away and I got 76!! I saw the last person talking the medal and walk away. Yes, this will be the last time. I will get the medal back next year! Trust me!

Anyway, back to the pictures:

From left: YiWen, me, YiWon, Debbie
The current Selangor girls
But there will be more joining us soon.
=)

Though the picture is a little blur I really like it!
From left: Kenny, Lionnel and me
So cute!

Me and YiWon

She always seem so high!

That's why I love her!

Hehe

Famme Fatale with Danny and Jay Wyn

YiWen is wearing a shirt because she got elbowed on her nose

and they got broken and she can't play after first quater

Hope her nose heals quickly

!!!

So that would practically be it! I will be uploading more events that had occured. By the mean time, stay tuned! Haha =D

Exhausted

2010-07-20T00:58:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone! I know it has really been ages since I last updated my blog but because something happened to my camera, I can't upload the pictures here. But thank God I can now! =)

Anyway, it has been a really tough weekend and now I am sick. =c
Nothing much to say anyhow..so there we go for this post. I am sick!

Record!!

2010-07-01T03:52:00.000-07:00

I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favorite sound, I don't need no parachute, baby if I got you, I don't need no parachute, you're gonna catch me, you're gonna catch me if I fall Down, Down, Down~ Chery Chole's Parachute

I know I know, it's been way too long that I haven't had my post updated, so here it is! =)
I made a new personal record. I ran the 10km Standard Charted KL Marathon on 27th June 2010!! My gun time was 01:14:21 and net time was 01:14:03. So the split time is only 00:31:06. Well, I guess it is not bad for a first timer running a 10km, is it? =)

Well, I don't think I have anymore things to say except it was my best marathon yet for the weather was brilliant that day, I remembered running half way where the sun was covered by the clouds and when I looked above, KlCC was standing almost right in front of me. It was darn beautiful. I don't think I would ever forget the scenery that is in my head...unless my memory card go haywire, then I got nothing to say. XD

Rights, so here are the pictures below taken during the marathon.
PS: I am wearing a bright blue or whatever colour you'd like to call that =b and orange running shorts.

Me, all excited!!

Another picture of me
Had to wear jacket because it was pretty cold.
Woke up at 3.30 am
!!!

Those runners in the corner were the 21km runners.
My catogory is the later one

Me at the starting point
Really excited and nervous

One of the top finishers

Me running in

still standing strong after the run

Oh I even went for my hard-core training later

The finishers medal

The back of the medal

This medal is like the best looking medal I have ever gotten. Can't wait for the Penang Bridge Run this September!! This marathon is also going to be a family trip! 2 in 1! Me likey! Hehe.

Okay, got to go now. Take care all! Parachute is very nice =b

PS: I am watching Desperate Housewives and oh my gosh! It's getting ever so exciting!! But sadly, Malaysia's line goes ever so slowly! Haiz..I am typing this out while I wait for it to load... Oh COME ON!!!

Fifteen

2010-07-01T03:36:00.000-07:00

You know it's you..We are getting closer..This isn't over~ Cause this is Africa
Hello everyone! =)
This is just a very random birthday shout out to my brother, 15...finally~ Haha
Here are some things that he should remember (if he reads it of course)
1) Stop reading my blog.
2) Lock your room door at night before you sleep! I don't want to lock it every night for you.
3) The dirty socks are meant to be in the toilet basket, not on the tables, sofa, floor, chairs ect.

Rights, basically what I have for now. Do it!

Bye~

My brother's 15th birthday cheese cake. Happy Birthday!

Family's Trip

2010-06-29T01:59:00.000-07:00

You got his heart and my heart and none of the pain, you took the suitcase, I took the pain~
Hey all! Alot has happened this month and I haven't had the energy nor the enthusiasm to blog them all down at once! =b
Well I got to take a step rather than no step at all right? =) So I will start about the two weeks of holidays I had...okay, the second week basically.

My dad decided to take us all back to his hometown in Melacca to visit my grandfather and since it was Sukma week, my brother agreed to go which means all of us are going as well.

We passed Negeri Sembilan and there is this famoust emporium that sells fresh prawns and Siew Pao. =) Love the prawns ~heaven~

We ordered steam prawns

And also Lala

My prawn with rice
I find it so adorable
=D

Fried Salad Chicken
They should call it Fried Mayo Chicken

There isn't a piece of green leaf in it!

After lunch, we went to watch Sukma

The swimming event

Brother wanted to have a picture taken by the
Mascot

For dinner, we had Satay Celup
Don't forget to order the bread to dip in the sauce

Yum~

Dad says that the food isn't as nice as before
I don't know
I just know that I like the water vapor blurring up my cammy
Making a halo effect

Just deep the food in...

Wait for a few minutes till they float up

Viola!!
All done and juicy to eat!!

This bear deserves to be poked in the eye
Because of its look that is so
DARN CUTE
!!!

More food

Hungry already

There was another shop which my mom wanted to try the food out
It was tasteless

HORRIBLE

Then we head home..

Tired and full...

That is practically about my family trip. =) It has been ages since we last have a family trip... This was quite a nice one...oh and I met Won at the arena too! Haha!

Father's Day

2010-06-19T19:29:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY
!!!
Thanks for everything you did and did not do. They have made us what we are today. -Twister-

2 Weeks

2010-06-09T19:38:00.000-07:00

Tell them how I'm defying gravity~ Kiss me goodbye I'm defying gravity and you can't pull me down~
Hey all! Go www.youtube.com and search for 'defying gravity'. One of a high pitch songs that I am currently addicted to. =b
I heard this song from Glee and my Oh my! AWESOME~ =D

Alright, now that I have 2 weeks of holidays, I am going to use it wisely. Don't ask me what I did because I won't tell.
Oh well, I just want to come here and write some junks while waiting for Glee to load so that I can watch it. =)

Okay, like I mentioned earlier about running the 7km run this coming Sunday, well guess what?
The sponsor is C2.. The new drink!
Now I have a shirt that has the logo printed so big I think they fear of people unable to see it! MY GOD! To those who know what I mean, will know what I mean. =b
But MY GOD! WHY!?!?
ARGHH!!

I think I am coming up with flu or something. I keep sneezing. Hiaz...

Alright, I think I should end this post here. I will upload some pictures about the run soon! =)
Take care all! Have a great day!

FiFa

2010-06-03T21:15:00.000-07:00

FiFa FiFa FiFa!!! Haha!
Hey all! Football season is in the air man! It's like 7 days more...I think...
Anyway, McDonald's have this limited edition FiFa glass cup.
I am collecting all 6 of them!! TeeHee!

So yeah, mom just asked me what I want for lunch like 200 seconds ago, and I said McD! Duh~

Haha! So yeah, off to McD's!! See you'll!!

xoxo

Busy June

2010-06-01T02:26:00.000-07:00

Can we pretend that airplanes in the nightsky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now~

Hello all! Today is the first day of June and for this month, compared to other months earlier, my time is pretty much occupied up.

I having my middle term examination which I have done studying. GOSH! Those books! Pure torture! I don't even know what I am reading! Screw it man.

Then I have this 7km run due in next two weeks and I haven't been running for two whole months! And it has always been raining in the evening... =(

The next week after the 7km warm up, I will be running solo for 10km. Yes, my new record. I have to finish running it. I don't care if I will end up running the whole morning whatsoever. I just need to finish the 10km.

Good luck to me! Haha!

Oh and I have to remember to hydrate myself before and after the run...

Take care all! Have a great day! =)

Airplanes

2010-05-30T00:44:00.000-07:00

Hey all! It's already a week past since last Sunday, which was a memorable day that will always stay in my heart. =)

I am having examination this week and then it will be HOLIDAYS!!! YAY!
Exam is until Thursday, so I wonder if I would go school on Friday or skip it and watch Rachael Ray at home... Hmm...

I am having this NAG gathering the coming Saturday but I am still scratching my head on wath I should wear.
I wonder if I can go shopping and get something nice to wear? Maybe a pair of heels and skirt?WIFE!!!
Moving on, it's not like it is VERY important *ahem it is* that I should wear something nice but it is kind of me. I remember once that I had to go to this birthday party and I kept asking them wath I should wear. The red dress or the white and black dress. Haha! Memories to be cherish. =)

OH YA! McDonald's is selling those drinking glasses for World Cup and I am gamed to collect all six of the designs. It started only this week and they will only have the lastest design each Thursday. I have headder now which is green in colour. The next design will be !!!PINK!!! I have to remember to grab those cups before they run out. =b

Friday was Wesak day. It was a holiday and I end up the whole day studying Biology and not understanding any shit. ARGH!

Anyway, I should enjoy this weekend not moaning about the exam. Haha!

Okay, I should stop here. Enjoy your weekend too! xoxo

PS: We got to prove this is not a dream k? Will you promise me that?

19, 20, 21

2010-05-21T09:43:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!!
Okay I will go straight to the point, shall I not? =b

19, 2o and 21 of May are WeiLing, ShinHuey and my wife, YiWen's birthday!!
Such a coincidence eh? Well, I have to buy presents for all THREE of them!! =) Seriously I don't mind at all! I like choosing presents for others.

Why you ask?

Well, because I tend to realize how much I know and understand about the other person.

There was this friend that I knew for only a few weeks and when I have to get a birthday present for him, MY GOD! It was like hell on earth!
I didn't know wath he likes, wath is suitable for him and all those basic stuff you need to know when getting a birthday present.

Then, when I went to the exact same shopping mall to get my wife her present *hopes she hearts it* MY GOD! It was like the simplest present to buy, yet! *Comparing the scenario above* I didn't know wath to get at first, but when my eyes landed on the present, I knew that I was going to give her that!
I don't know if she would want to use it but one thing for sure, I knew wath colour she likes, wath number is hers, wath flavor she prefers and all those stuff you got to know to get a present right! It was easy as seducing a guy XD Just kidding! Everything comes naturally~ -Selena Gomez-

Oh wells, I know my wife for THAT long, and I know the other friend for ONLY that long. That makes all the differences... =/

Alright, I should be hardworking enough to upload the present I gave my dear wife...remind me if I don't, will you?

Oh sadly enough, I lost my camera charger. So I had to take those pictures from my 2 mega pixel SE. =( Sad, sad, INDEED VERY sad case.
Wait! This post should be a happy one. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!! I wanna be a billionaire so freaking bad~ Random =b

Alright, I think I should stop typing all these random stuff and go and do something else. Like continue writing these randon stuff in the next post XD

Okay, here is the last thing I want to say

!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

!!!

Picture of Huey, Wen and Xiang. I do not have WeiLing's picture...
well because she's new to the team that's why
never went outing with her before
...

Don't Pull

2010-05-16T19:43:00.000-07:00

Heyya!
I got another song to share. Not a really new song but I like it... =)
I have the lyrics written down just that I am too lazy to go www.youtube.com to find the song so here is the link for youtube. XD

The Script

Break Even

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just pray to a God that I don't believe in

Coz I got time while she got freedom

But when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Her best days will be some of my worst

She's finally found a man that's gonna put her first
While I'm wide awake she's no trouble sleeping

Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even

Even

NO~

What am I supposed to do when the best part of me was always you

And what am I suppose to say when I am all choked up and you're okay

I am falling to pieces, yeah

I am falling to pieces

They say that things happen for a reason

But no wise words are gonna stop the bleeding

Coz she's moved and I'm still grieving

And when a heart breaks no it don't break even

No~

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you?

And what am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up and you're okay?

I am falling to pieces, yeah

I am falling to pieces

(One still in love the other one is leaving)

I am falling to pieces

(Coz when I heart breaks no it don't break even)

Oh you got his heart and my heart and none of the pain

You took you're suitcase

I took the blame

Now I'm trying to make sense of what little remains

Coz you left me with love and no love to my name

I'm still alive but I'm barely breathing

Just pray to a God that I don't believe in

Coz I got time while she got freedom

Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even

No it don't break

It don't break

Even

No~

What am I suppose to do when the best part of me was always you

And what am I suppose to say when I'm all choked up you're okay

(Oh glad you're okay now)

I'm falling to pieces

(Oh glad you're okay now)

I'm falling to pieces

(One still in love the other one is leaving)

I'm falling to pieces

(Coz when a heart breaks no it don't break even)

Oh it don't break even no

BEST SONG YET!!!!!

Standing By Me

2010-05-14T18:34:00.000-07:00

Hey all! While I am waiting for Ghose Whipserer to load, I think I would just write something here.

This song I have been listening is like tons of years old...and I have been listening since forever! But the feeling is always there. The lyrics get more and more meaningful day by day. I heart that song as much as I heart my wife. *hint hint*

Alright, bet you guys are stratching your hair out to figure wath song this is. And I shall announce here, my friend. This song is called Lips of An Angel by Hinder. Don't sweat me..who ask you want to read? Haha! So yeah, heart this song as much as I heart my wife, okay? =b

But recently there is this song that is so directly meaningful and true. It just came out recently and I just love those lyrics! This song is by Travis McCoy and Bruno Mars. Song title? Billionaire! Haha!

Show you guys the lyrics and here is the link to the song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8aRor905cCw

Bruno Mars]

I wanna be a billionaire so fucking bad

Buy all of the things I never had

Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine

Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen

[Chorus]

Oh every time I close my eyes

I see my name in shiny lights

A different city every night oh

I swear the world better prepare

For when I'm a billionaire

[Travis "Travie" McCoy]

Yeah I would have a show like Oprah

I would be the host of, everyday Christmas

Give Travie a wish listI'd probably pull an Angelina and Brad Pitt

And adopt a bunch of babies that ain't never had sh-t

Give away a few Mercedes like here lady have this

And last but not least grant somebody their last wish

It's been a couple months that I've been single so

You can call me Travie Claus minus the Ho Ho

Get it, I'd probably visit where Katrina hit

And damn sure do a lot more than FEMA did

Yeah can't forget about me stupid

Everywhere I go Ima have my own theme music

[Chorus]

Oh every time I close my eyes

I see my name in shiny lights

A different city every night ohI swear the world better prepare

For when I'm a billionaire

Oh oooh oh oooh when I'm a Billionaire

Oh oooh oh oooh

[Travis "Travie" McCoy]

I'll be playing basketball with the President

Dunking on his delegates

Then I'll compliment him on his political etiquette

Toss a couple milli in the air just for the heck of it

But keep the fives, twentys completely separate

And yeah I'll be in a whole new tax bracket

We in recession but let me take a crack at it

I'll probably take whatevers left and just split it up

So everybody that I love can have a couple bucks

And not a single tummy around me would know what hungry was

Eating good sleeping soundlyI know we all have a similar dream

Go in your pocket pull out your wallet

And put it in the air and sing

[Bruno Mars]

I wanna be a billionaire so fucking bad

Buy all of the things I never had

Uh, I wanna be on the cover of Forbes magazine

Smiling next to Oprah and the Queen

[Chorus]Oh every time I close my eyesI see my name in shiny lights

A different city every night oh

I swear the world better prepare

For when I'm a billionaire

Oh oooh oh oooh for when I'm a billionaire

Oh oooh oh oooh I wanna be a billionaire so fucking bad

Oh yeah, how meaningful is that eh?

Happy Mother's Day

2010-05-08T22:36:00.000-07:00

!!!HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

Here is wishing all the mothers around the world a very happy mother's day. Hope you guys have a blast!!

New Beginning

2010-05-07T02:02:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!
I am back from Paroi. NAG was okay...wasn't as fun as last year though. This year's match was more emotional.
For the women's team, we won 3rd place and the men's team won 2nd.
Training are back to basics. It is a new beginning and I hope everyone can turn up training more often than they did last year. =)

Cheers!

National Age Group 2010

2010-04-26T07:12:00.000-07:00

Hey folks!
I am going for a competition this Wednesday.
I am going for Water Polo National Age Group 2010 hosted in Paroi, Negeri Sembilan.
We are fighting for the 1st place medal. And I know, I believe and I can feel that the gold medals belongs to Selangor Men and Women's Water Polo!!

Good luck to us all!

Don't forget our sunblocks!!

Already Gone

2010-04-26T07:03:00.001-07:00

Good day all!
If you guys don't know, Kelly Clarkson just came to Malaysia yesterday.

I am not a real big fan of her but I do like some of her songs. It is such a waste that I can't go to a concert, I'd cry all night just watching her. Well, because her songs tend to have hidden meanings and if you think far enough,they do give you some kind of impact...that life is worth living.

The first American Idol has lots of hits and one of them is Already Gone.
Why am I saying this? Of all the songs she sang, why this song?
Well, I lost my eraser!! It has been with me for almost 4 years plus and I lost it.
I was so upset that I had to get another one almost immediately so that the missing part in me will not be there.

It is already gone... =(

But one thing I know is that I do love it, very very much.

Ice Breaking

2010-04-14T02:20:00.000-07:00

Hey all!
Recently the weather has been blazingly hot! Thank God it rained today...too very heavily. My house area was flooded. Wasn't cool, wasn't scary. The road was jam packed till I fell asleep in the car waiting to take a 3 seconds turn into the actual location.

Anyway, my point of coming here today is because I was reminded by someone that I haven't been updating my blog. So, I am here to write some crap in it.

Alright, so I shall introduce a 'new' member of the family in this blog. The person who asked me to update this blog of mine. She is my wife! Hahaha!

I don't think it is cool at all to write down her name and other personal stuff in here withour her permission. I want to ask her but she has went got to fetch her cousin somewhere. WIFE!!! WHERE ARE YOU?!?!

So, just a few weeks back, we got ourselves rings! =D
Yeah, that it is, the picture below, my ring. I didn't take hers..well, because they are the same. So I just screw it. =b

Okay, I shall end this post here. Goodbye all! Take care! =)

!!Cakes!!

2010-04-11T01:14:00.000-07:00

It's APRIL! Wow! Time flies at the blink of an eye. I hope I have done something useful in my life. Haha! I don't know. XD
Anyway, my birthday is coming. Yes, it is something special because I will be celebrating my Super Sweet Sixteen!!
I have sent out invites through http://facebook.com.

Now, I am finding designs for this special event. So, here are some of the pictures I borrowed from the net. =)

My personal favourite

Okay, I will end this post here. I feel like eating cakes now XD

Inti Open 2010

2010-04-05T01:40:00.001-07:00

Hey all! I haven't had the time really sit down and blog about all the activities I had. Well, I am too obsesses with the TV series Cake Boss and Ghost Whisperer, not to forget How I Met Your Mother on www.tvshack.net
I will get to the other activities later but now I want to share this:
Inti Open

The booklet

Us girls having our camwhore

At the Mamak Stall.

The food was quite expensive

and didn't taste nice also

YiWon wanted to take a picture
with Kin Meng's brother.

It ended up like this

...

I know you are now speachless
...
Don't get jealous
...

Well, this time around, Penang won Melacca!! WHOOHOO!! Congratulations Pinang! You guys deserves it more than Melacca! =D

One More Time

2010-03-20T20:47:00.001-07:00

Hello! Hello!

Yes it is once again MSSM. This year is held in Selangor though it was supposed to be held in Sabah but due to some problems, Selangor was the host again. One more time Selangor is the host and one more time we get to work there. =D

Well, according to those seniors, the standard for water polo had dropped alot. The match is way easier and the time had shorten from eigth minutes to five minutes per quater.

That is a good thing for us officials. It wasn't as tiring as before and the game was played much faster. Plus the rest time were plenty.

Sadly, there weren't enough founds for the officials to have a room so we had to pay for ourselves.

Forget about the money, the tiredness and the stress. It was a whole good fun and an experience that money can't buy. It was awesome~

Here are some pictures taken during those four days:

The board was actually working
XD

Wei Ling and Yi Won
Wei Ling is a new player and hope she will love this sport

as much as we do

From left:
Ping Zheng
Wei Ling
Gabriel
Yan Xiang
Yi Won
This piocture was taken after training, so we all look wet
XD

Oh ya, I haven't announce the score. 1st place was the mokey Melacca team, 2nd was Negeri Sembilan (they have been waiting for this year like forever), 3rd was Selangor and 4th was Perak.

It still suprise me that Selangor actually won 3rd...didn't expect that at all. Thought they would loose the match. =b

Okay folks, I would sign off here. Have a great weekend. =)

Still Stuck

2010-03-14T08:00:00.000-07:00

Hey all!
I am still stuck with the song "Don't Stop Believing" by the Glee. The song it so addictive!

Anyway, my point of writting another post here is to edit something from the recent post.
I was saying that I didn't have a coach for the speed walking, turned out my dad was it.
Haha!
Thank you!!
I strongly appreciate that! =)

Don't Stop Believing

2010-03-12T02:00:00.000-08:00

Hey all! Though I would just drop by and drop in a few pictures at the same time.
I got nothing much to say except life has been real hectic for me
But I am too tired to accomplish half of them.

I feel so bored and all I want to do it sit infront the the PC and watch Ghost Whisperer.
Yes, besides How I Met Your Mother, I am addicted to Ghose Whisperer.

On the bright side, I won the 5km speed walking.
I had no training, no coach, all I did was learn from Youtube.com and had a few try outs.
Well, two days before the competition.

So, it is quite an achievement for me to actually won 3rd place.
Yay me!
My goal for next year is, of course, to win 1st place and break the 34 minute record.
I want to have it to 30minutes and below.
My time was 40...sad.... =/

That's all. Take care. =)

HOT~

2010-03-08T03:23:00.001-08:00

Wath is up a'll!!!
Now I have a mixture of different kinds of feelings.
I just came back from my first ever MSSD run.
I am so tired right now my eyes can hardly open but if I sleep now I will end up waking up at 3am.

Well, another thing is that I won third place for the 5km speed walking. I have had only like one actual training yesterday and winning this thing is a huge achievement.

Also, I joined the 800km run and got 5th place. I was dead tired by the end of the day and my time went off. So this event wasn't my thing. Wath to do? School no people to send, send a cow better than nothing. XD

Well, I will be having the 400m run tomorrow. Hope I won't end up being the last now...amen...

I think I have another slight sun burnt because my face is feeling the burnt. Oh GOD damn!
It's so hot, I stood infront of the air conditioner just now to let my face cool down abit. Shit!

Achievements always feel the best
=D

Something New

2010-03-06T06:28:00.000-08:00

Hey all! The weekends are here and it has been one hectic day. How was your Saturday?
Anyway, my point is not here. It is about being thankful.
Yesterday, me and my dad had our first supper outside. Yes, this may sound weird but it had been 16 years since I had supper with him.
We went to a mamak store around the house area and had roti.
I don't know why but I think this is something worth remembering.
I am so thankful right now.
Okay, I will stop here before I start having waters in my eyes...

Be thankful

Reunion Lunch

2010-02-19T02:34:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year everyone!!

I am having a slight migrane right now. At least I think it is. The left side of my head hurts but only for a while, like 10 minutes or less. Oh shit! Now it's back. Fuck.

Anyway, I shouldn't be cursing on new year's day but wath the heck, it hurts. I can't help it. There is no cure for migrane, only time helps. Yes, I have been doing research on Wikipedia.

Moving on, there is always this tradition to have a reunion meal a day before Chinese New Year.
For my family, we always go to my grandma's house for that special lunch.
Everyone will have to bring a dish along, something like port luck. I like it.

Well, when I stood infront of my grandma's house, the gates were decorated this way:

It is used from the plastic bags of the Madarin Oranges
Creative eh?

Also, we had 'Loh Shang' this year
Usually it is held on the 15th day

but I don't know why we had it before new year

'Loh Shang' begins
Got to 'loh' the food

as high as possible

It brings some kind of luck or something
and then we eat them
Yum~

Preparation for the reunion lunch

Everyone had to bring a dish
These are some of them
=b

This is fried wan tan
This was really awesomely yummy

We can't eat before grandma says so
So have to
wait
...
wait
...
wait
...

See how bored we got
while waiting
*yawn*

Grandma will say some blessings before
we are allowed to eat

Let the feast begin!

Also, we cannot eat everything up
Got to save some for next meal

It means that we got alot of food to eat

Clean up time

"Noooo!!"

Some random shots

At midnight,
we have to burnt charcoal
to welcome the

God of $$

Muahahahahah
!!!

There is a saying that the later you sleep, the longer your parents will live. I stayed up till four! XD

Alright everyone! I will end this post here and I will update more about this festive season! Stay tuned! =)

Chinese New Year

2010-02-12T01:18:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year!!
Alright folks! Tomorrow will be the first day of Chinese New Year!! I am so excited!!
Except he half spoilt the mood for this season..shhh!

Anyway, here is a list of wath to do on new year:

Buy or make new year
cookies
!!!

Text your love ones!
Oh, and it is valentine's day as well!

He spoilt it...thanks!

New CLOTHES!!!
I want more new clothes!!

Repaint the whole house..
Okay just clean the place up
XD

and....

EAT!!!

Happy Chinese New Year

!!!

Freaking Out!!

2010-02-01T23:59:00.000-08:00

Hey all! It had been quite some time since I last updated my post...I realised I have been saying this line for the pass few posts. Though it is quite true but I still got to think of some other lines to say. XD

I am starting to freak out.

Why?

I am having public speaking on Thursday, which is less than two days time!

I got no line.

I know nothing about public speaking!

Wath should I do??

Stay calm is wath they would say but I can't!

Then there is Chinese New Year!

I haven't managed to buy any clothes yet!!

OMG!!!

HELP!!

SOS!!

Hate this feeling!

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2010-01-24T06:15:00.000-08:00

Wath's up everyone? It seriously had been quite sometime that I didn't update my blog.
Well, here are some random pictures I took to upload here.
These are one of the pictures I like. =)

Anyway, I don't know wath's wrong with my mom. I think she is going through manopause or something. Boy, her temper has been bad to horrible!!! I can't stand her exploding all her anger on me! Wath the heck!

Don't care! I really don't care! I had finished my school marathon and won first place. Now, my next goal is to fnish the state's marathon. Besides that, there is nothing much to bother about. =)

Well, here are some of the pictures I mentioned earlier. Hope you guys like it.

The pink Hibiscus
my dad bought for Chinese New Year

Thanks For The Memories

Cecelia Ahearn

One of the best book

I have read

Pig shaped candy
taste ew-ish
=b

Another set of flowers
I like the colour

Lemon Chicken
Looked damn tempting
yum~

Alright, there isn't much to say anymore. I am kind of tired actually, probably lack of sleep. *yawn*

I shall end this post here. Take care all and have a wonderful day ahead. =)

Still 2009

2010-01-18T00:48:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps! It has seriously been ages since I last posted another post.
Well, I have been screening through some of my photos and realized I have not uploaded the New Year's picutures. It is definitely abit late but hey, better late than never, right?
So, here are some of the pictures.

It has been a tradition to go to my aunt's house during New Year's eve

Another tradition is to eat Ice-cream

from Baskin Robin
=b

Future cousin-in-law

Cousin LLJ

We rushed down when the clock almost strikes twelve

Just in time to see the fireworks!!

I like fireworks
I like the sound
I like the atmosphere
I like getting calls during those time
and I did recieved callS!
=D

Went back to another aunt's house
Start opening bottles of wine
!!
I got so red after that

XD

There,
this is how much we drank
...
Okay! You got me...
They are chocolates
=b

Alright, I think I should stop here now.
Have a great day!!
=)

Hungry Now

2010-01-09T01:43:00.000-08:00

Hey everyone! It has been ages since I update. School has started and the first week has ended!! Finally, right?
Anyway, I am kind of hungry now and was muching on a piece of Gardenia bread till mom comes back so we can go get dinner.
I really got nothing much to say but well, I got to squeeze in something to say so I won't bore you guys out. Well, Bejeweled is fun and Bon Jovi is AWESOME!! I won't go there right now but yeah, they are good.

So, school life...nothing much because it is never interesting.
Zh is going Johor for work and I am so going to miss him. =(
WHY MUST YOU GO???

Pictures to entertain =)

Haiz...

Hungry le...Where is food? Where is life? Where is him?

Alrights, I think I should end my post here. Take care all! Buh- bye =)

Tomorrow

2010-01-03T04:43:00.000-08:00

Hey all! Seriously, time flies damn freaking shit fast and tomorrow is going to be the first day of school!
Its going to be my first day as a Form Four student, to be able to look down at those Form Three students and tease them. XD
Well, wath I am most looking forward this year is to win first place for the cross country running this year.
Next is to really crack up my mind and explode out a bloody good invention and win win win.
Then win Betawi Cup.
Then win National Age Group.
There are so much more competitions in the future so I can't say exactly wath I want to win some more. Haha!

Whao! I am really aiming for gold in everything that I am good at this year!
Wish me luck! =)

Here is a picture just to match the other post. Taken by me at one of the beach we went to earlier, that I mentioned about it the post before this.

Oh! I got to remember to cut and remove those colors of my nails! Damn it! I really love these nails. Hmm...goning to take of picture of them first! =(

Okay, wish me luck tomorrow that I am not the one who got the worst results among my nerd friends. Also hopefully I don't leave any thing important behind tomorrow.
Aw man, almost the worse part! The teacher!
I am always nervous to know who is teaching us...we got to stick with him or her for an entire year but wath the hell? 2010 is going to pass damn fast, like every other years. =)

From Selangor To Perak

2009-12-30T20:57:00.001-08:00

Hey all! This would be my last blog for this year. It is 31st December 2009 and in a few more hours and I am done with the single number 9. It's going to be 2010.

Before I get any further, I got to apologize for not updating my blog. I kind of lost interest in it. But anyway, here I am, back again, writing more craps about how my life is wath so ever.

Alright, back to topic. 3 days ago, we had an eating trip. Yes, ate and ate and now I am seriously fat. Damn it.

Well, I uploaded some pictures here. I had an awe-fab-some-lous time!

The view from above

Me and Mei
with our sunglasses

Me and LLJ
at the beach

On the bed

XD
Don't need to ask what we were doing right?

I like the lighting

Could have done better

but

I didn't bother

Mei, Ah mah, Uncle Johnny and LLJ

posing

Uncle Johnny, Me, Mei and LLJ

posing again at the swimming pool side

Baby Wen Shen

a happy baby

Wath the heck is the person

in the picture doing??

Me and Mei

another SS

at the beach side

Picture taken

while me and LLJ were laughing

can't recall wath we were laughing
XD

Nice or wath?

I took this

Icing on the cake

!!!SCALLOPS!!!

Damn freaking fresh

Damn freaking yummy

Damn freaking good

I <3 scallops

LLJ and Uncle Johnny went cycling

I ran

on the second morning

and it rained half way

I was soaking wet

Best run EVER!!

Me and Mei

There are loads of us SS-ing but

I like this

Group photo

Well, there are still loads more pictures to be uploaded but these are just the few that I like.
Okay, there were tons of damn nice sceneries, nicer than the ones above. I just got bored with them. All so nice, don't know which to upload.

I shall end this post here. Here is wishing everyone and very happy new year. Take care and drive safe tonight. May God bless you to not be caught tonight by the police and wear a condom.

How To

2009-12-20T21:49:00.001-08:00

Hey all! This post is , I think, my first how to. Nothing much really, well because I just started learning how to cook. So this is one of the simple dishes that hopefully can't go wrong.

Grandma taught me how to cook this dish. In Hokkien, this vege is called Han Zhi Hio, also known as the leaves of sweet potato.

My Han Zhi Hio

First, we pluck out the leaves

Seperating the steams

Because the steams have rough surfaces

Grandma suggests us to peel one side of the steam

The steam will taste smoother

!!Cool!!

Leaves and steam all plucked

ready to be washed

Got to rinse the vege dry before frying
if now the oil will splatter when they touch water
So rinse them dry for safety reasons
=x

We need
Garlic
Oil
Salt
For this dish
Simple eh?

Then fry those green stuff
after
the oil boils and gralic in first

There! I did it!
First attempt
Almost perfect
=D

I was like so proud of myself
Hehe!
Thank you Ah Mah!
I <3 you

Yep, my first How To. Simple, nutritious and yummy.

PS: I ate two bowls of these veges

Rights, a very short post for a very simple How To dish. Hopefully I will be posting up more How To dishes. Pray hard!

I am listening to this song 'It's My Time' by some guy called Fabulous featuring Jeremiah. Well, just saying. =)

Continuing

2009-12-15T19:38:00.000-08:00

Hi all! I am back with more pictures of my days learning how to cook. Which reminds me that I don't have my darling Lumix with me. My aunty lent it for video taking. WTF?!

Anyway, my nose hurts so badly now after smelling the nail colour remover that Wen lent me.
So to all those newbies like me, don't smell all these chemical things. You would probably regret it.

Wath the heck, back to topic. I don't know if my title is spelt right but I don't care because my nose hurts.

So, here are more of the pictures. Let's have them do the talking alright? I will narate them along like I always do so well. XD

The strict looking group photo

Opps!

Twinkle twinkle little star~

How I wonder who you are~

I did not take this pictures and the ones below.

This is one of the cookies we baked.

Leader one (left) with another leader

packing the cookies we made

Oh Em Ghee!

I just had to upload this photo up!!

Pao Pao, his name
He looks like one of the actor in

Puah Chu Kang

Oh do I like this picture or wath?

Though it spoils the quality of my

awesome Lumix

The teacher who taught us

Cookies in the oven

Yum~

More cookies...they were good

I tell you

PS: Nose still hurts =(

Leader 0.5

Wen, he's the fellow larh

Wife and wife secret talk

This is ginger cookies

After I own an oven

I am so going to bake this

with loads of ginger for sure

A little girl holding the sugar stars.

They were made from icing sugar with water

we were told that

There, ginger cookies

with chocolate and sugar stars

A *souis chef* helping out

by stirring the pot

of soup
We made mushroom soup as well

Chef doing her things

Damn professional

Two students taking pictures

with MY phone

They were my friends

!!My dish!!

Garlic bread

Mashed potato

Mushroom soup

I find it kind of cute

and

gay

...

The others' dishes

Tea break

Everyone eating the dish they made

Pictures above

Then we had a talk

The leaders standing infront

Me and Wan Xi

SS as we waited for the talk to begin

Okay, this is all for this post.

I want my camera back

My nose hurts

I Less Than Three You

Pre Exam

Not More

Next: GOLD

Worse Or Worst

Y U NO meme

Extraterrestrial

Today

My B

Patience

I Wish The Whole Team Reads This

Less Than 3

Jessie J

About Price Tag lyrics

Jessie JPrice Tag lyrics

WIN THIS!

2nd Round

Debate

Fucking Pointless

Stand Up

!!!HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

To Speak Or Not To Speak

I Gotta Heal My Soul

Keep Your Mind Wide Open

Whip Your Hair

Back To December

Decorations

Teenagers

All I Want For Christmas

First Day Of Work

21

Jam Packed

Breakaway

Never

Of Golden Horses

Send Me Away With A Love Song

A Tear

Speechless

Back

Gratitude

Recovery Month

Flying Time

TAR Open

Exhausted

Record!!

Fifteen

Family's Trip

Father's Day

2 Weeks

FiFa

Busy June

Airplanes

19, 20, 21

Don't Pull

Standing By Me

Happy Mother's Day

New Beginning

National Age Group 2010

Already Gone

Ice Breaking

!!Cakes!!

Inti Open 2010

One More Time

Still Stuck

Don't Stop Believing

HOT~

Something New

Reunion Lunch

Chinese New Year

Freaking Out!!

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Still 2009

Hungry Now

Tomorrow

From Selangor To Perak

How To

Continuing

Jessie J
Price Tag lyrics